Hello blog. How i wish i don't have to use you. Cause using you will be the same to as i have no one to talk. So, in anycase thanks.(:
1) School is shit nowadays. keep changing classes. And my facilitators all suck. I go to school wanting to study, but sometimes i really cannot bring myself to do it. But i'm trying, that's for sure. Going to school is totally the same as just wasting time and waiting for time to pass. In class just msn all day long. Hais, if i carry on like that i will waste my life man. So i'll try to buck up!
2) Hais, just thinking of it makes me so sad. Baby.... after all i've given out. You can only tell me 60%. I really want your love. So badly. Am i an idiot?? I hope i'm not. 60%... hais. i can't say much. Time and again i'm getting hurt. But i will stay strong. It's not always about me. It's about us. Baby, give it your best shot. And the oath, 8th May 2oo9. I shall wait for 8th May 2o11. Until then, then i maybe i will lose my heart and something else. Baby, i'm serious about this. But i'm not gonna do things like ending my life. I alr have smth on my body to remind myself of the day that is going to come. So hopefully, you will be able to give 100%. Thanks.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Shitness.
I didn't know that i will be doing this type of stupid things. Omy, blogging for me??? It's gonna be a hell of shit for me to talk. I cant find anyone to talk so i'll just have to express my feelings to this blog. It's not gonna be a sort of diary. It's gonna be something like a paper for me to write all my shitty feelings down, when i'm feeling emo as i'm lazy to write. Lets get straight down to the point. Life has been hell nowadays. And i mean hell.
1. Mummy is going for an operation tomorrow. Just thinking of it makes me scared. This is the first time i'm so scared of smth. Fuck, she has a tumour. Hopefully it will be fine. Mummy please be ok. I won't want anything to happen to you. I can do anything in order just for you to get well, even if it means exchanging my life for yours. Mummy, i know that i'm been an asshole since young. I cry, i pee, i crap in my pants, i fail my exams, i retained and many more. But you have always been there for me. I can't even imagine a day without you in my life. I know i get frustrated sometimes, for example teaching you how to sms. haha. But mummy, i will teach you how to sms again when you get well. I will teach you anything, as long as you get well. Mummy please be ok. I really regret on not spending more time with you. Sorry, for making you sad, disappointed, upset for every shit stuff that i do. You are sleeping right now. I went into our room but due to the dosage of sleeping pills, you are sound asleep. I helped you cover the blanket and kissed you. The way you curl up on bed is the same as me when i usually sleep. I think that's cause you are my mummy. I hope to be able to help you cover the blanket, see you and kiss you everynight like what i did tonight. Just rest well til you are fully recovered mummy. I will be strong. And i will grow up from the childish mentality of mine and i will not let you worry in the future. I will go to diandian (shop shop in Chinese) to help out, so just don't worry and rest well. I will be good. Good luck for the operation tomorrow. Thanks for everything.
MUMMY, I LOVE YOU.
2. It between me and ahby. So many things happened to us. We kept quarreling. And you said it from your mouth. Why must you say it byyy. Why. hais. I really love you so much, and you said it from your mouth. Ahby, i really don't know what to do. What have i done wrong. I'm just so afraid to lose you. Do you know that? You don't, you just treat me as another guy. You never ever said you love me truthfully before. I asked you and, you said you don't know. Is my position that small in your heart? Ahby, i'm tired. I really tired. I don't know what i did wrong. Maybe it's my attitude. Sorry Ahby. Please forgive me for what i have done. I'm really sorry. I don't think i'm a good boyfriend. But i'm definitely trying my best. I'm really tired already. So many things happened. I really wanna be with you forever. But, you don't believe me. I hope that one day you can really love me whole heartedlly. Cause...
AHBY, I LOVE YOU.
1. Mummy is going for an operation tomorrow. Just thinking of it makes me scared. This is the first time i'm so scared of smth. Fuck, she has a tumour. Hopefully it will be fine. Mummy please be ok. I won't want anything to happen to you. I can do anything in order just for you to get well, even if it means exchanging my life for yours. Mummy, i know that i'm been an asshole since young. I cry, i pee, i crap in my pants, i fail my exams, i retained and many more. But you have always been there for me. I can't even imagine a day without you in my life. I know i get frustrated sometimes, for example teaching you how to sms. haha. But mummy, i will teach you how to sms again when you get well. I will teach you anything, as long as you get well. Mummy please be ok. I really regret on not spending more time with you. Sorry, for making you sad, disappointed, upset for every shit stuff that i do. You are sleeping right now. I went into our room but due to the dosage of sleeping pills, you are sound asleep. I helped you cover the blanket and kissed you. The way you curl up on bed is the same as me when i usually sleep. I think that's cause you are my mummy. I hope to be able to help you cover the blanket, see you and kiss you everynight like what i did tonight. Just rest well til you are fully recovered mummy. I will be strong. And i will grow up from the childish mentality of mine and i will not let you worry in the future. I will go to diandian (shop shop in Chinese) to help out, so just don't worry and rest well. I will be good. Good luck for the operation tomorrow. Thanks for everything.
MUMMY, I LOVE YOU.
2. It between me and ahby. So many things happened to us. We kept quarreling. And you said it from your mouth. Why must you say it byyy. Why. hais. I really love you so much, and you said it from your mouth. Ahby, i really don't know what to do. What have i done wrong. I'm just so afraid to lose you. Do you know that? You don't, you just treat me as another guy. You never ever said you love me truthfully before. I asked you and, you said you don't know. Is my position that small in your heart? Ahby, i'm tired. I really tired. I don't know what i did wrong. Maybe it's my attitude. Sorry Ahby. Please forgive me for what i have done. I'm really sorry. I don't think i'm a good boyfriend. But i'm definitely trying my best. I'm really tired already. So many things happened. I really wanna be with you forever. But, you don't believe me. I hope that one day you can really love me whole heartedlly. Cause...
AHBY, I LOVE YOU.
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